Let it flare!

You cannot believe how many times the song Frozen Let it Go, rings daily in my ears. To the point of much irritation actually. Trust me, I will never get the  CD lest this is the only song my kids remember of their childhood. But their constant singing of this song gave me the inspiration to rewrite it and portray how I feel at this juncture in my withdrawal process (with a little bit of humor I hope). I titled it "Let it flare" as it reflects my acceptance of this condition. With God's grace I am coping well. I cannot control the flares and instead of getting upset when relapses hit, I continue to live and manage... Hopefully bravely and even more significantly. Yes, let it flare!

(Tune: Frozen Let it Go)

The skin glows red on the body tonight,
not a calm speck to be seen.
A moment of isolation and it looks like I'm the wreck.
The heart grimaces with this wrenching pain inside.
Couldn't keep it in, Father knows I've tried.

Don't let them see, don't let them know,
Paint the picture you always have to be.
Conceal, don't show, don't let them know.
Well, now they know!

Let it flare, let it flare!
Can't hold it back any more.
Let it flare, let it flare!
Come be brave and face the pain.
I don't care what they're going to say.
Let the fire rage on.
The burning shouldn't bothered me any more.

Wonderful how faith in God,
makes everything seem small.
And the fears that once controlled me, can't get to me at all.
It's time to see what I can do,
to test the limits and break through.
No right, no wrong, no rules for me.
I'm free!

Let it flare, let it flare!
Though I am one in agony.
Let it flare, let it flare!
You'll never see me cry.
Here I'll stand, and here I'll say.
Let the storm rage on.

God's power flurries through the air into the ground.
My soul is spiraling in mercy and grace all around.
And one thought crystallizes like an fiery blast.
I'm never giving up; I can bear with the pain!

Let it flare, let it flare,
And I'll rise like the break of dawn.
Let it flare, let it flare,
That strength in God remains
Here I stand, in the light of day.

Let the storm rage on!
The burning never bothered me anyway...