The book of Job spoke deeply to my heart as I was going through Topical Steroid Withdrawal. In Job 7:3- 5, it reads,
"And wearisome nights have been appointed to me.
When I lie down, I say, ‘When shall I arise,
And the night be ended?’
For I have had my fill of tossing till dawn.
My flesh is caked with worms and dust,
My skin is cracked and breaks out afresh."
This was exactly how I felt in those dark and lonely nights. I dreaded the night for I knew it would be another sleepless one. Sleep was at most an hour each time, and without fail I would wake with crazy itchy frenzy on raw and painful skin. I wish I didn't have to sleep and could just stay awake, yet sleep was so paramount for healing. On top of the sleeplessness, I was struggling with full body red, oozing, open wounds.... Yes, I understood what Job described as "skin is cracked and breaks out afresh". I shed copious tears.
Yet, through it all, I am thankful for this painful experience as I could appreciate the book of Job so much more. No one had it worse than Job. His loss and suffering was immense and I believe beyond comprehension (health, family, wealth...). Yet, Job stood out as a man with great trust and faith in the Lord despite all trials and affliction. Reading about him was almost like God’s urging me to emulate him, a man of faith who rose above infirmity, blameless and upright throughout his time. I was challenged by his example and sought to emulate his responses in times of affliction. He did not curse the Lord for his sufferings. He held fast to his faith in God.
I never questioned why I had to go through this ill bout of health. On the contrary, I see the purpose and meaning as I see the good things that came out of the ordeal. Having a deeper appreciation for the book of Job is surely one of them.